The people I miss, places I want to be . . .

Well, I really miss having my friend Corrien around, she's quite possibly the funniest person I know!!! (I learned all of the "tricks of the trade" from her!!) SO, here's to you Corrien, my little Irish friend, to our good times in Colorado, but thank heavens we don't live there anymore, eh?!?!?! I just wish you would move your tree huggin', Oregon butt closer to me, so I can force you to wear that ridiculous cowboy hat again!! (Secretly, I know you were in love with the hat though; you know you had dreams of wearing it to our beloved Nascar outings, so the "mullet people" could flock to you, comment on the way sexy hat, and get your number!!! (J/K!! EWWWW!! The thought of mullet heads hitting on you makes me squeamish!) Well, Cheers to you - go have a Guinness on me, sunday school queen!!!

I need a serious vacation and I saw this picture in my files and I wanted to jump into the picture and be there!! (Okay, so it sounds dumb, something my 5 year old would say, buy hey, don't act like you've never wanted to do that!! ) Anyways, Chris took me to Santa Cruz for the weekend last year for our anniversary . . . I was the first and only "vacation" that I've ever been on!! (I forgot that I had even been on a vacation!)

Oh, the good times at 99 Bottles!! I don't think I remember anything after leaving that fine establishment, so I guess it was a good time!! (This pic was taken AFTER we left, as you can tell!) Oh, how I want to go back!!

One more fun thing about that trip; I got to fly a plane!!! Yes this is me, blonde Nikki Caldon, and I flew this plane, and lived to tell about it!! It was pretty sweet, the flight instructor stalled the engine for me and we started diving towards the ground!! Fun stuff!!

"Hi, my name is Nikki Caldon and I will be your pilot today . . . we are headed for a place, ummmm . . not here, we're gonna go some other place . . . I'm just not sure where yet . . . Hawaii maybe, if we have enough gas, umm, yeah . . . so shut up, buckle up and hold on!!"

(The flight instructor was pretty cool; as you can see, he even let me stick my gum on the roof of the plane, so I wouldn't accidently swallow it doing cool tricks with the plane!!)

Aloha, My Friend

I have a dear friend that is going through some really hard times in life right now. Sooo, I wrote this song for you, to let you know I'm here for you - through thick and thin. I'm not a flake, I won't press you to return the favor, and I won't smother you with my own issues in life! I will be here for you as much or as little as you want me to be, and for as long as you want me to be . . . I'll be your friend . . . By the way, out of sheer curiosity, I looked up the meaning for "aloha" and I found out that it means much more than just a simple "hello" or "goodbye" . . . To me it seems like a way of life, something that you choose do to show that person you care. I should have wrote a song with an "aloha" theme!! Well, maybe next time!!
(P.S. - I stayed up REALLY late writing this for you so you can't say that I don't care!!
P.S.S. - I think another song is in the works called "Confessions of a raging psychotic" !!! Hee, hee!!! You know what I mean!! )

~ My Friend ~

When I saw you today

I could tell right away

That you hide behind your smile

I know the pain seems fierce

And it doesn't hold any sign of letting go

But I'm here to show you

That I'll be a friend that's true

And I will stand by your side, abide

And do you trust me? cause I trust you!

I won't give up when you think your through

trying, Dear one, your crying

Don't hide your heart, cause it is free

To seek shelter from the raging storm

I'll keep you warm

Safe from harm

In my arms

Some friends are made fast, too many are gone and past

But I will stay where I belong

I won't be moved

By the trials and tribulations that come our way

Come what may, I'll stay

Your friend, my dear one, to the end

My friend

Written by Nikki Caldon

1/19/06

Aloha is…

love,affection, compassion, mercy,

sympathy, pity,kindness,sentiment,

grace, and charity.


Aloha is a… greeting, salutation, regards, sweetheart, lover, and a loved one.

Aloha is being… beloved, loving, kind, compassionate, charitable, and lovable.

Aloha is to… love, be fond of, show kindness, mercy, pity, charity, affection, venerate, remember with affection, greet and hail.

"Aloha!" is… Greetings! Hello! Good-by! Farewell! Alas!

Here's something to "chew on"

My friend Ben recently wrote an excellent blog on Christianity being the new "F" bomb word of the century. This is Ben . . . He's a pretty mellow guy as you can see . . .

To check out ben's blog, CLICKHERE: badlydrawnben.blogspot.com



I'd like to share with you one really good paragraph of his that struck me the most . . .

What is Christianity anymore? Really? It certainly isn't what Christ intended for it to be. Christianity has become a religion unto itself, a club with required membership, life-long member benefits such as life, death and fire insurance that will never expire as long as you show up on Sunday morning looking spiffy with a grin and a "God-Bless". Because of the judgmentality, aloof attitudes, infighting and general inability of "Christians" to be IN this world without damning it to hell on a daily basis, rather than just being OF this world; Christians are now seen as Bible-wielding maniacs; and the savior who's virtues they espouse so vehemently has been turned into no more than a mythical patriarch who lords over a group of social pariahs that excel in contradicting themselves on a daily and public stage.It seems to me that over the course of time and due in large part to the actions and/or inactions of well-meaning-yet-not-too-bright "believers and followers", Christianity has become the new F-word; Socially Unacceptable. I've lost my faith in Christianity, maybe now I can finally get down to knowing God.

ONE LAST THOUGHT:

(AKA - Things that make ya go, hmmmmmm . . .)

WOULD JESUS BE A CHRISTIAN?!?!?!

Why I believe . . .

Some may ask why I have such a strong faith in God. While it all may just be a lie, some myth, a glimmer of something to hold on to, a coping mechanism of sorts, I ask, what do I have to lose by believing? For me, it is better to have believed than to not believe at all. For some, it is out of ritual or duty, paying penance for their wrongs, or just to make themselves feel better for the many bad things or "sins" that they have commited. I have honestly asked myself many questions as to why I believe that there is a loving God out there who loves me without condition and has paid the ultimate ransom for my life, for no other reason than that He created me, loves me and knew every deep and intimate thing about me even before I was a glimmer in my mothers' eye.

A quote from the book Captivating, written by John Eldridge states it so beautifully:

"sometime between the dreams of your youth and yesterday, something precious has been lost. And that treasure is your heart, your priceless feminine heart. God has set within you a femininity that is powerful and tender, fierce and alluring. No doubt it has been misunderstood. Surely it has been assulted. But it is there, your true heart, and it it worth recovering. You are captivating. "

See I have found freedom in God to know who I really am, as opposed to the standards that the world, via the media, magazines and other sources, try to squeeze me into. The inward beauty in myself that stirs and awakens others to find the God-given beauty in their own hearts. Yes, there are still the constant "whisperings in my ears" to try and decieve me into believing that I am no one special, and that I don't have anything beautiful inside to offer; sometimes I give into these whispering lies and they knock me off of my feet for awhile. But ultimately I must not forget who I am, and what I have to offer from my heart that God has placed there. The world cries out for something more than just the mystery and seductiveness of a beautiful, well-endowed woman. It is crying out for more; even the most beautiful people in the world are still unhappy. Nothing can fill the deep void that lay in their heart, except to know the one who knows them best . . . their Creator. God does not intend to dominate and demean, as some religions portray, (christians by the way are very notorious and hypocritical for judging people and distorting God's view of mankind - it makes me very hesitant to call myself one) rather, if we allow Him to, God inspires us to bring forth life in knowing who we are and what we were made for! So insane and crazy, I may be, but what harm am I doing by encouraging and inspiring others to live deeply from their hearts, to reveal God's beauty and to show them the beauty that He has placed within them, and to live as God created them to live; fully alive?! And at the end of this long and exciting journey, if it was all truly just a bunch of nonsense, then I can truly say that I lived and gave everything, rather than trying to survive in this life, holding back everything, and dying, with nothing . . .

- Nikki Caldon

The "KING MULLET"

So many of you know that secretly I have this fetish with mullets; secretly I HATE them, I think that they are so ugly, that I find them truly fascinating!! I'm always on the look out for a really "good" mullet and the other day my friend Jarrod introduced me to the mother of mullets, THE KING MULLET!!! (hats off to my pal, Jarrod, who does not currently sport a mullet) I was truly and utterly speechless; at a loss for words - this IS the best mullet I have seen to date! I would challenge anyone to top this one, so feast your eyes, here it is:

THE KING MULLET!!!!!

This mullet is definitely in the category of "The show-low". You see, the different styles of mullets have different categories, and in mullet language "The show-low" means that the mullet is short on the top and the rest is long. Might I just add that the cell phone on this guy looks somewhat new, which would lead me to believe that this pic is pretty new in and of itself!!! Might I also add that the shorts and rolled sleeve T-shirt go fabulously with the bag he's carrying. In the early nineties I know that mullets were quite the rage, but I think some of the world's population missed the memo that we're not in the NINETIES anymore!!! But hey, if ya want to have a mullet, fine by me, whatever "floats your boat", "toots" your horn", "gets your panties in a twist" !!! To all of you mullet wearers out there, I have just one last word;

WOW . . .

Take Me Away

I have been in a songwriting mood lately, so here is one of the songs that I wrote.

~ Take Me Away~

I cannot bear to gaze at your stare

For more than a moment, I won't dare

Spellbound my eyes, they hit the floor

Captured and ravished to the core

Burning with passion, laden with love

My heart cries, take me away

If just for a moment

If just for awhile

To taste of your beauty

touched by your love

Surrounded, protected, take me away

Make me your own and take me away

Masquerade that you hide behind

You think you've got it figured out

But I know the wiser, I see right thru

To the depths of your being, if you were true

Your wanting, your waiting for this journey

So never say never, let this begin and

take me away . . .

Okay, so I never said I was a great songwriter or anything, but who cares!! It's fun, it's a hobby - enough justifiying myself for writing cheesy songs, enough said . . .